I know your pain all too well and have quite a lot to say about the subject, so here it goes.
It’s so easy to get attached to someone so quickly as a teen and think its gonna last forever, and when it doesn’t, we don’t really know how to handle it. Now, I don’t know all the details of what happened between you two or what kind of relationship you guys had, but with you being so young (I’m assuming you’re a teenager), you and I both know that you will move on eventually. It’s not something that happens over night or in a week, it usually takes awhile depending on how invested you were in the relationship and in the other person. Tbh, my last relationship ended over 8 months ago and, though I’ve mostly moved on, some days are still pretty hard. I’m alone a lot, not necessarily by choice all the time, but loneliness has been my biggest demon for years. When you’re alone, you start to think back to the times when you weren’t alone, the times when you were with that other person, happy as can be. Even worse when you’re alone but you know they’re not. But anyway, one of the hardest parts of getting over that person is learning to be without them. Keep your friends and family close because when you have them, you’re not alone. Sure you can’t make out with them at whim or cuddle naked or the other fun stuff that comes with a relationship (I mean technically you can but that’d be weird), but they can give you peace of mind, you can trust them, confide in them, hangout with them, and make memories with them. You don’t have to try and get over him all by yourself like I kind of am, reach out to the other people in your life that you love. It’s very important. Also, DO NOT LIVE IN THE PAST and DO NOT ANSWER THE DOOR IF THE PAST COMES KNOCKING. It’s gone and has nothing new to offer you. There is absolutely no reason to trouble yourself with things you cannot change so don’t take steps back, always be moving forward. And ALWAYS always always make the most out of today and look to the future, because you do have a say in that. See, most people (teens especially) feel like they NEED someone else to quickly fill that gap that the other person left. I’m not saying you can’t do that, it’s your life, but I’ve found that filling that gap with stuff that’ll benefit you directly and allow you to learn how to be happy on your own and be on your own is much healthier. So set some new goals for yourself, treat yourself, go on adventures, do some new things for the first time, strive to be the best fucking “you” you can be, and lean on your friends and family when you need them. Trust me, I know memories will still flash through your head once in awhile, but like I said, it’s important to not dwell on what’s gone. Move forward, don’t stop, and soon enough “moving on” will be “moved on”.
Sorry for the fucking novel, dear lord hahaha but I hope this helped a little!
I have been desperate to escape for so many years now, it is routine for me to try to escape.Jack Henry Abbott (via kushandwizdom)